21

I thought of all the things I've seen, experienced, and done in the last minutes of being 21. I came up with a few. Most important things were spiritual, which shows that Jehovah is still a big part in my life. I want it to remain that way forever.

Quiet Screams

I went to a friends party today. The party started at 4pm and I was there at 4pm. Obviously when you tell people to come at a certain time they end up coming 2 hours late. I helped her father out with some stuff and then sat around. I said hi to some people who I knew but they never had any conversation with me. My friend went and mingle with her guests and laugh and play around with them. But I still sat there looking at the different people I don't know. The air was getting a little chilly so I got some food and went inside. I had some laughs with my friends little sister who was showing me some funny videos from a show on nickelodeon. Then she went off and did here own thing. So there I was there still sitting there and watching other people having fun. As the depression and boredom slowly start to slip in, I take my phone and played with it a little and put it away. Then the realization comes back to me and after sitting around for 4 hours, I leave.

No matter what I do, nobody likes me anyway.

The Power People Use

There is a certain power God gives us. Oh man, this is such power. We all have it and we use it on one another. Whats is this power? It is the power of making someone fall in love with you. With it you can get a person to dream about you and look at you with through a whole different light. The person will start acting 'funny' and will even try to hard and not even try at all to get to you. Not to be a comedian but, with great power comes great responsibility.

However you can chose what you want to do with this power. You can use it for good and for evil. Use it for good and you can give that person closure and make their dreams a reality. That person will treat you right and you both will love each other for the rest of your lives. Use it for evil, and every bad little thing you do or say will be like a huge wave crashing down on that person. Evil people will also use that power to get what they want out of the person until they are useless as a 10 year old mop.

We all have this power, use it but don't abuse it.

My friend's squeeze

Today I got to meet my friend's fiance. The day before I was just dreading fo rthis day but today I was actually a little excited. He's been through a lot for a 46 year old man. So I really wanted him to finally settle down with a person who would treat him right. He picked me up from class and had me sit in the backseat. I was actually surprised he made me sit there so early, but anyway I just sat there (more room for me). On the way there we got lost and I saw deer for the first time in my life. Right then and there I began to appreciate nature and all the things Jehovah created. My friend decided to stop and ask a man who was peddling his bicycle uphill. Even though the man was in the zone, he decided to help us on our way. I was there thinking to myself being in the city is so easy for me, but I don't think I would manage in such an open place where I would have to drive for miles and miles. After getting the right directions, we ended on a parkway and then into a town. My friend decided not to take chances, he picked up someone who was waiting for the bus. Whe the man got in the car he smelled of cigarettes. I was being cautious, cause I've seen so many movies when person pickup a hitchhiker and then it doesn't turn out to well. After awhile he seemed safe since he was unsure of the area too. The man kept calling his girlfriend to make sure we heading in the right direction. Oh by the way, with all this driving i began to regret drinking all the water in class, cause boy I had to pee! We dropped the man off to the bus station and while my friend got directions I went to the restroom in one of the buses. That thing stunk, but I held my breath and used it. After making sure we were heading the right way, we pulled off and drove to the comfort inn.

When we went inside, he called for her at the front desk and in a few minutes she came down. From then on I was observing the both of them. Yes for the fact I was a chaperone, but also to see if they were meant for each other. During the rest of the even my friend being the joker he is, did his flirting thing to make her laugh and smile. There were times it got quiet for a few minutes, but then it picked up back again. She was pretty cute for a 41 year old woman. Cute face, but I did notice her big behind which I rate from a scale of 1-10 a 7. The squeeze did carry the Ohio accent which i found very interesting, cause met someone from Ohio and they didn't sound like that. But then again people in queens sound different from people in the Bronx. As I listen to them conversate, I don't know, I didn't really feel that much from them. I guess it's the fact that they're two older people and more mature so they don't have have the 'puppy dog love' that I'm used to seeing with people my age. After we ate we dropped her back to the motel and my friend walked her inside while I sat in the car and waited.

While in the car, I opened a compartment in the backseat and reached into the trunk and pulled out my zune from my backpack. As I sat there listening to my music, I just thought about my future. The drive home was quiet, I still sat in the back and listened to my music and text my friends. My friend and his squeeze. I think they're going to make it.....

Rainy Day

Today I woke up late, like I usually do when I have nothing to do. I always get angry at myself when I wake up late. When I was younger I used to wake early as 5am and jog in the park that's only a block away from me. I wanted to wake up early today, especially on this day. My favorite band was playing on the Today show in Rockefeller Center. Usually late days like this make me feel like I'm not accomplishing anything. If I had only woken up earlier made my way to the subway and stood there in the rain just to see them. That would made up for all the failures, the laziness, the weakness, the scars from bro-......maybe later. This goes to my new friend baniña, the drain you get yourself into, it will spit you out. 

Cuny Proficiency Exam

Got my CPE results back today. Failed it. I wondered who graded my test. It basically consist of selections and graphs in where you have to compare and then state you opinion. I never think people can grade you in anything you write, especially when it comes to expressing your own opinion. If it doesn't make sense to certain people then they should just pass the work on to someone else who can read and understand it. I think here in the 21st century, people write a lot of bogus stuff and they get paid millions of dollars and get a lot of recognition. The reason is certain amount of people liked what they wrote and find it interesting. Just seeing what I got makes me so upset. If it was math or any kind of subject when you get a wrong or write answer, then yes I will understand and be humble. So what do guys think: should people grade you on an essay where you voice your opinion?